I was reading a nice Lady's blog...http://moontides-mxtodis123.blogspot.com/... and she was talking about becoming a crone and becoming the "invisible woman"
She's quite right, we do tend to become invisible as we get older, but I think it's more in our minds.... and transfers to our body's.
Now I have noticed, once or twice, that that seems to be happening.... but I'm not one to take such things lightly.... and I needed to shake up the bottle and see where it spirts!
I've never been the "normal" one in the group. I've been chubby since my son was born, and I'm not too tall.... so sometimes people look past me, instead of at me... AND I DON'T LIKE THAT!
So I checked myself out, and notice that I've changed!!!!!
I'd stopped wearing high heels (my poor tired feet) and stopped wearing makeup, and I let my hair go gray.... and I had just sunk into the (normal) depression that older women get.
Oh, and worst of all... I stopped wearing my V neck tops to show off my bounteous bosom!!!
Once I took that ,I said....FUCKING NO WAY!!!!!!
I've always prided myself in looking younger then the people I grew up with, and here I was letting MYSELF down!
I don't give a fig what others think of me, but my sinking into "Cronehood" was of my own making.... how rude of me!
dyed my hair, even though I liked the gray, I started checking my appearance when I go out.
First I started off by having my morning coffee........ then putting my makeup on! Doesn't matter if I'm going out or staying in, I slathered the makeup on... and I started feeling perkier.
Then I took out the shoes with the heels and left them out! I may walk around the house in my slippers....but if the doorbell rings, or even if I just go out to get the mail...the heels go on!!!
Or my sneakers with the skull and cross bones on them! Love those Goth sneakers!
Another thing I noticed is that I stopped wearing all my silver jewelry!!! Why? I have no idea, just seemed like too much work to get it out and put it on.
So today I took it all out and "adorned" myself!
I noticed it most today when I went to wall mart. I no longer had to wonder around to find someone to help me. I walked tall, and every time I stopped at a department, help came right up to me.
Like I said, I don't like to go unnoticed.
And yes, I'm tired, and I have a bad back and a bum hip and knee....but I'm not going to let others see me hobble around. It may just be make believe, but when I'm out I'm TALL and PROUD, AND SEXY AS ALL GET OUT!
Take THAT, my inner old crone! I'm not giving into you anymore! :P
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Posted by Judith at 6:32 PM